Thoughts

I haven't written in what feels like ages. I haven't really wanted to. It's not that I haven't had lots to talk about. There's plenty of thoughts, ideas, scenarios, worries, and so forth that go through my mind continuously. But a lot of them haven't been things I feel comfortable sharing with the public. I'm having a difficult time sorting a lot of these thoughts out and trying to figure out who I am. I had thought that this blog would help me do that in a public way, but unfortunately some waves were made by my opinions and that has caused my shy side to forge ahead once again. That's the thing with shyness, you take one step forward and two steps back. It seems to be that way with a lot of things in life actually.

A quick update:
I was struggling with depression for a large portion of the time I was away from my blog. I think my hormones were encouraging a lot of it as I was weaning my son from breastfeeding and for the second news.........we found out we are pregnant with our second little one! We are so very excited and it seems that this excitement has helped me get somewhat past my depression. I do feel some moments where it feels like it's ready to pounce on me again. But, for the most part, I have a wonderful distraction in my life to help keep it at bay.

I'm not quite sure where to go with this post now. I have so many things I want to say, but I'm not sure I want to say them yet. There's just far too much in this head of mine. I do hope to keep my blog up a little more often now, but one thing that I've learned about myself over the past year or so is that I am not a consistent person. I cannot stick to one thing for an extended period of time. I get very, very bored with it, or annoyed with any obligations. I used to get angry at myself for this, thinking that it was a lack of willpower or character. Well, it's certainly not a lack of character, in fact I think it's a shining example of my character. I like to live life fast. Not speed-wise, but content-wise (if that makes any sense). Thankfully my hubby is the exact same way. Hopefully our children can keep up with us!